I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. A second chance with the two guys I care about the most. How does that happen? As of right now i'm so confused and lost. What do I do? Yeah follow my heart. But my heart belongs to the both of them.
One of them, I guess you can say my first love. The first guy that I ever put my heart out there for. The first guy for many things. But we had such a bad run the first time. What makes me think this will be any different? It's been a little over two years since we've been broken up. Does it really take that long to make you realize what you lost?
The second one, what can I say? He means the world to me. But it's just i've been hurt so badly that I just don't know if I want to put myself in that position again. Even though I can't seem to let it all go, knowing I didn't do everything to make it work.
I thought I was the perfect girlfriend. Everything he needed and want I was there to make it happen. Through everything I was the one there. Even though thats a girlfriend duty. But you can only give out so much, to not recieve anything at all in return. Maybe I was doing too much.
Just torn between the two...
